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thoughts on singlehood...

hmm..a lot of people search for "the one".
most often we ask:
-kelan ko kaya mameet?
-kelan kaya sha manligaw?
-does he know i exist?
-am i ready 4 a relationship?
-and finally..IS HE DA ONE?
hehe..

a friend of mine said love is insecurlty. but i dont know..isnt it when you feel loved that u feel most secure & safe? (doesnt have 2 be romantic love)
anyway..
i guess love is something so precious that you've no right to force or hurry it.
no rush.
cool ka lang.
darating din yan. : )

we look around us and see so many couples with invisible hearts floating around the place. then we feel sad and alone. (aaaaaww..) but hey, me life din naman tayo! d pa dumating mga prince charming naten.. and maybe your still a work in process..d ba?^^,)  better 2 start something you know your ready for. all the way..!  so that you wont end up breaking ur heart and feeling pathetic. and also, so you wont be giving pieces of your heart away.  ano nalng maiiwan sa "da one" mo db? hehe

God knows the perfect timing.
..bka mgkaklase kayo ngayon at friendship level palang.
..bka nagkabangga na kyo at pinulot nya aklat mo. (naks.drama!haha)
..bka ngkashare kyo ng payong sa ulan coz either 1 of you doesnt have one..(haha)
..bka kaaway mo sha ngayon!
..bka din childhood friend mo pala...

so many possibilities! but dont try to guess..or you might lose the excitement..hehe^_^

just w8. be patient. keep tellin urslef that. enjoy ur friends' company. live life! enjoy life! do the things-only-singles-can-do while ur still single. and most importantly, PRAY : ) be thankful narin in all cirmcumstances or you'll end up frustrated.

magulo b ako? la lang..just talkin to myself really n to anyone else out there who shares the same sentiment. hehe

one fine day...

today i had lunch w/ my sister along with my nephew carl who's the same age as me, and my good friends oli, jan, cole...
we ate @ jollibee..
i was going to meet a friend during the afternoon...
my sister didnt want to go home after lunch so ok, she's comin w/ me...
i cant force her to go home...and i knew how lonely it's gonna be just staying at home...
i thought it would be quite awkward that the three of us, me, my friend, and sister would go out together..so i also invited my nephew, who was quite hesitant at first, to come along...
i have to be honest, i was kinda nervous to go out with my friend...only because we became close through YM & i didnt know what it would be like face to face...hehe^_^
so anyway, i waited..and waited...and later he said he wont be able to come after all...
i was disappointed../:o or maybe i was just insensitive..?

anyway, im just disappointed...yet thankful at the same time coz i was able to spend quality time with my sister and nephew...

sayang lang pd...

hai...still not feeling all that great..dont wanna go back to manila yet...
homesickness...hahai.../:o

this is it for now...

mixed emotions...

im happy coz...

1) nakauli ko
2) i got to spend time with my highschool barkada (im so happy)
3) i got to spend time with my cousins & other relatives
4) nkaattend ko sa b-day party sa akong pamangkin na cute & gwapa :D
5) i got to spend time with my younger sis
6) i got to help out in our church's youth sunday
7) i got a break from studying
8) im just home..
9) i had certain realizations on two people
10) i got to watch TV (hehe)
11) i have another cel na
12) i got to play badminton
13) i got to watch 2 korean series
14) ....hahai... next...

im sad coz...

1) its just me & my sis
2) i wasnt able to spend as much time as i wanted w/ my friends & family
3) im going back to manila in 2 days
4) school's gonna start in 3 days
5) i miss my parents (hehe)
6) im gonna miss d luto..
7) im feeling homesick already..
...basta sad pud ko!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu../:c

anyway, i'll get over this..gus2 lang ko pahungaw..hahaha

dear me, ...

dear me,

hai..ang tagal na since last ako ngpost ng blog..hahaha:D

so,anu nang kwento sa buhay?

hai..stress na..finals week(s) mgstart na! bumabaha na naman ang mga readings & stuff..

ang dami ding problema & issues..hey, im just an average college girl..normal lng yan db?

feel ko ala nang sense mga sinasabi ko..haha^-^ ok lng..sumhow i just wanna talk.  i have these questions inside my head...

1) what do u expect from me anyway?

2) how are things supposed to be the same as before when we're living different lives now?

3) is it the third party? or is it us? /:o

4) am i starting to slip away?

5) ano kaya ulam bukas? :) hehe

6) what did i do wrong?

7) did i do well kaya??

8) will i see you soon?

9) will we still be on the same block next sem?

10) kelan kya ako babalik..?


dont know what else..hahai..ang gulo..pro somehow may peace din^-^ hai,sana matapos ko narin journal ko sa isang subject.. i wanna go home! O_o huhuhu.. soon..


OK.

-the end na.-

=)

a better understanding of the cross..^-^

i was reading Joshua Harris's BOY MEETS GIRL when i came upon this story..well its not really a story..basta..more like a message to all of us..haha

anyway, here goes..

There was this woman who spoke in a seminar ata un... Afterwards, a woman approached her.  This woman happened to be a church worker/leader and she confessed that before, she had committed sexual sins with her present husband (before when they werent married pa). Anyway, to the point na she got pregnant...  Since they werent married yet, revealing this would be too embarrassing and for sure, this would cause a lot of issues,etc.   so they decided to abort the baby.  After that, she continuously felt guilt and regret for having done the abortion.  And that even now, the memory still haunts her.  The speaker then told her something that's very eye-opening. She asked, "why are you so surprised of having committed that?" Because the woman said she couldnt believe she could do something like that, she couldnt seem to forgive herself completely.  "It's not the first time you led someone to death.  And same for everyone else," the speaker added. (well sumthin like this..hehe) 

its becoz 2000 yrs ago, becoz of you & me, an innocent man was crucified undeservingly.  this Man, is Jesus Christ. =) He didnt deserve it, we did.  But still, becoz of God's grace and love for us, He took our place.   let's take time to understand this, God still forgave us kahit dahil sa atin, Jesus died. WOW. If there was a big sin, small sin, whatever, dont you think God would consider that as our biggest sin?  Christ was His Son... Yet through it all, we were forgiven and have been given the gift of eternal life.

So friends, you think youve done something so mean, so disgusting and unforgivable?  Look and reflect upon the cross.  We have a God who's waiting for us to turn back to Him..ready to forgive us with open arms...: ) and besides, if we cant forgive ourselves when God can, it's as if our standards are higher than God's dba..? it takes time and prayer lang..^-^ human as we are, of course we'd feel guilt, etc. but we can lift it all up to Him...

hesitant? take the chance.  uve got nothin to lose. . . but everything to gain =)

thank God =)

isnt it amazing how God works?

grbeh..lang pasok bukas!

more tym 2 study...hehehehe

thank God 4 the rain..

but it would be kinda selfish 2 stop there..
pray pa rin tau 4 those na affected sa bagyo..^-^

that God's sovereignty will prevail no matter what..hehe

cge, ingat y'all.. Godbless!!

hhaaaii.. pag-ibig!

hehehe..la lng..

during an overnyt at my friend's house,
one of my groupmates raised d question..

"what is love to you?"

of course, we each had diffrent answers..

one said it's insecurity

another said.. ay, nkalimutan ko..it was kinda long, but really deep..
but it was a veyr good answer..^_^ hehe

hmm..ano pa b? pro anu b tlaga ung love??

accdg to the Bible in 1 Cor. 13, eto..

love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud..it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not easily angered.....it does not keep a record of wrongs.

anyway, bsta mhaba yan..=)

wala lang..napaisip lng ako.. hehe
pro i think its important to know that love is choice.

haha..jst some thoughts on love! babush!! :'D

every action's gotta hav a reaction sumhow..???

hi peeps..

assuming binabasa nyo blog ko,

<hehe> pls do leave comments or sumthin..

hehehe..nkakalungkot kc..

la akong kausap..hehe :)

thanx^-^

survey sa alang mgawa..

1. Where were you 5 hours ago?
* my uncle's houzz..

2. Who are you in love with?
* as in romantically? hahaha wla!

3. what song are you listening to?
* ala eh../:p

4. Is there anything pink within 10 ft of u?
* the room! well,slightly pink lng..hehe

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
* kanina..i bought groceries^-^

6. Are you wearing socks right now?
* nah..

7. Do you have a car worth over 2M?
* nope!

8.When was the last time you went out of town?
* ngaun??? hahaha summer..

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
* unfortunately no...

10. Are you hot?
* ewan..hehehe:')

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
* water!

12. What are you wearing right now?
* brown top, white capris..

14. Last food that you ate?
* shrimp!!! yum-yum..:D

15. Where were you last week?
* UP dil..katipunan..makati..:)

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last
week?
* nah...

17. When is the last time you ran?
* knina..kc umulan na la akong payong..hehehe

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
* ahahahahaha...?

19. What is your favorite class?
* accounting? yayks..well,gotta luv it..

20. Your dream vacation?
* vacation in the white sandy beaches of the Carribean w/..idunno =)

21. Last persons house you were in?
* uncle's.

22. How old are your parents?
* 54 na!

23. Have you been in love?
* dunno if its real luv..

24. Do you miss anyone right now?
* hmm.. yeah..^-^ lots of pipol..

25. Last play you saw?
* st. louis ..?

27.What are your plans for tonight?
* sleep after i play collapse II ! yihee! :D

28. Who is the last person you sent a friendster
message or testimonial?
* mbt..kalimut nko..

29. Next trip you are going to take?
* trip 2 cagayan on sembreak?! hahaha

30. Ever gone to a camp?
* ofcourse..

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
* yeah...hehe:)

32. What do you want to know about the future?
* kng sino maging happily ever after ko..?!! hehehe=)

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
* kanina..

34. Are you hungry??
* sumkinda..hahaha

35. Where is your best friend(s)?
* davao n cagayan de oro..;')

36. Who is your best friend(s)?
* bsta..=)

37. Do you have a tan line?
* no!

38. How old do you want to be when you have
kids?
* around 27/28 cgro..hehe

39. Do you collect anything?
* stickers & stationery..haha since elem. pa! stuffed toys din ^-^

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
* dunno...

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled
over?
* never happened...

42. have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
* yeah..?

43. How do you like your drinks?
* cold! :)

44. Do you like hot sauce?
* depends..

45. Last time you took a bath?
* kaninang umaga../:p

46. Do you need to do laundry?
* bukas! hehe

47. What is your heritage?
* 75% chinese then 25% filipino n konteng spanish..

48. Are you someones
* friend?=)

49. Type of guy/girl?

* bsta Christian, singkit n sna musically inclined..hehe

50. Food?

* anything yummy..sweets, junkfud, etc..so many...hehehe

thoughts...

bakit kya ang dami nating tanong sa buhay?

like..

ba't ang hirap mag-aral?

makakalagpas kya ako ng 3rd yr?

kelangan bang maaga gumising?

kelan kya ako mgkaboyfriend/girlfriend?

siya na kaya??

anu kya ulam bukas? (haha)

i guess we worry 2 much..although i think worrying is inevitable, we should remember na we're not alone dba? and everything will fall into place at the right time and place... let's just keep on trusting the Lord...we cant help it sometimes,but kelangan lng tlaga maghintay...

anyway, la lng...just some recent conversation w/ a good friend of mine:)